← /contentslug: 2020-04-19-quiet-house
date: 2020-04-19
title: quiet house
type: notebook entry
Campus closed last month — everything happened fast once it happened. One week people were joking about it, the next the NBA suspended its season overnight, then Tom Hanks had it, then the whole world just kind of stopped at once. Everything's online now, which for me mostly just means I'm attending the same lectures I was half-ignoring before, except from my desk instead of a classroom, which is somehow both more convenient and worse.
Mom's still going into the hospital every shift, which is its own kind of stressful to watch from the outside. Dad's work slowed down a lot — fewer people calling for HVAC repairs when everyone's worried about strangers in their house. My sister's doing high school over a laptop now too, and the whole house has this weird overlapping-video-call quality to it most days.
Strange silver lining, if you can call it that: I have more uninterrupted evening hours than I've had since before I had a part-time job. No shifts at the hardware store right now — Dave had to cut hours. So instead of feeling great about that, I feel weird about it, but I'm using the time.
Been noticing something annoying about the Loop and honestly about every model I've built: none of it remembers anything. Every run starts from nothing except whatever's baked into the weights. I have to manually feed it context about "here's what we tried last time" through my own log files, which means the actual model has no idea it's part of an ongoing process — every experiment is its first experiment as far as it's concerned. Feels like a real gap. Going to spend some time this summer thinking about what persistent memory would actually mean here, versus just, you know, having a longer prompt.